Not a fraid of death when u haf nothing to lose..
well, it's been sum time since i last post on this blog. alot happened, but i'll just pick one particular stuff to talk about: ghost movie.2 days ago, i watched a ghost movie called "one missed call 2" with my family and frens. well, i guess it's another successful attempt by japanese directors, after "the ring", to scare our hearts out.. my fren- male, 15 years old, covered his eyes and ear for 1 and 1/2 hour in this 2 hour long movie, and he can't get into sleep at that very night. in the end, he crawled to his sister's bed and sleep with her sister, lol. (he must be sneezing right now :D) same goes to my mum, and my timid little brother, they can't seem to get to sleep till 3am, sigh..
now cums the gist of this blog, i found a weird thing: i'm not afraid.. well, not tat i'm courageous or brave or wat, but i'm just not afraid.. this is really weird becos i know i would be afraid, at least frightened a little, but this time it's really weird..
this left me to think this few days.. and, i finally got the answer: i'm not afraid becos i haf nothing to lose. or rather, i feel like i haf nothing to lose.. it is true tat ppl afraid of death when they fear tat they would lose wat they own now, tat's y they are afraid of stuffs like "ghosts", "aliens", "devils", etc.. ever since i came to canada, i feel like i've lost anything i own, anything tat belonged to me, and tat caused me to be unafraid of ANYTHING, like "cum get me i dun care anymore"..
well, it's even weirder tat i WANT to feel afraid once more, i want to feel afraid of dying, afraid of losing wat i own, i want to feel my presence once more..
when will tat day cum?..
posted by -=Punisher=- @ 4:50 p.m.
6 Comments:
Din expect to see salesman here....nvm....
Hey,whenever i format my com, i'm not scared of getting virus or worms or hacked watever....coz there's like nth inside....i lose all the music and games and pics i saved for months....but i get to start everything afresh,i have a chance to make my com's content better than the previous,less trash, more substance....thou it takes time.
abit sucky analogy lar, but, u nid time and effort b4 anything precious can be build up.be patient friend.
argh... talk about nothing to lose. Whats insurance for anyway. I get that feeling everytime i change an environment. Just like you, bro. = |. Dun worry, it'll leave you after a while and something else will arrive. Very soon. Very very soon. And now im really really shagged. Too many pushups. Too many Close combat lessons. And too many burnt weekends. So sad. So sad. No mp3 in camp. Even worse. And if your curious. I changed my site. its Confusedcius.blogspot.com
wah son... i nv ignore u k... i always come in see see look look.. but u dun update often...
hey! look on the brighter side of life man! mayb u nt afraid of deathe etc coz u're rather enlightened! oops! :X
lol salesman...
anyway, thank u guys ya, lao zhen got a very good example there, lol, but if i'm a cumputer, i need a technician..
well for andy papa, must be damn fit now right, haha, miss ur naked photos with me lol..
and mummy, i din say u ignore me lah, just dun feel very secure etc etc.. well, maybe brightness will arrive soon, "enlightenment" haha..
i hereby strongly urge SON to update his blog. bleahz.. :P
hey i'm sure it really aint that bad, guess everybody going through new phases of life always feel frustrated just like all the uni and army pple... haha do take care and cheer upz
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